Happy Birthday Beautiful!

I am sitting here at the hospital on my sweet girls 17th birthday. What on earth has happened? Never in a million years would have I guessed this is where we would be at this stage of her life. Never.  It is almost as though her life has been suspended in time. The years go by and her generation has grown up, yet she is still in that hedged off space. A place that I haven't been able to reach her. In many ways I am still back here:

Here she is 10, before significant regression. This is before my heart was broken beyond repair. Now, she lay in a hospital bed recovering from what started as an infection and worsened by a bad reaction to a medication. 

As I am sitting here listening to the radio, Morgan Harper Nichol's song Storyteller comes on and tears start flowing down my face. Why? Because I know I need to tell her story.

On a Sunday evening I'm

looking back over all the years

and where I've been

Looking at old photographs

I'm remember

you were right there,

and you have been ever since

With every page that turns

I see your faithfulness

Oh the mountain where I climbed

The valley where I fell

You were there all along

That's the story I'll tell

You brought the pieces together

Made me this storyteller

Now I know it is well, it is well

That's the story I'll tell

There were some nights that felt like

They would last forever

But you kept me breathing

You were with me right then

And all that you have done for me

I could never hold it in

So here's to me telling this story

Over and over again

Take a listen to this wonderful song:

Storyteller - Morgan Harper Nichols

If you are listening to the music I have running, scroll down and hit the pause key so both songs don't play at once. :)